Composed January 24, 2013.
If this is one like the past n years, I’d have pre-birthday blues by now (fyi, my birthday is on the 31st). I’d feel so low and desperate about every factor of my life that I could think of.. How my efforts seem not enough to make me succeed in the career I’m in.. How I’d wonder if there really is someone out there for me and when in the frustrating days of waiting will it finally come knocking on my door.. How I’d miss the younger years, free of mature worries and complications.. How I’d feel how much I need to grow my spiritual relationship with God.. How I’d regret some stages of my life, thinking I would have been a better person now had I decided to not be in those situations.. How people I love seem to be expecting more from me, yet I could only give this much…
It always felt like making each year of my life pass without any satisfaction for any part of it.
It’s January 24 now, and the depression should be here by now. Yet there’s really none of it..
But I get it now. Maybe it’s ’cause my 2012 has been so great and so blessed that there was no time for any depression to seep in.
I became part of a religious community and also met new friends there.
Red Society Events Management got engaged in 5 projects last year.
Despite the storms and other calamities that hit the country, my family, friends, and love ones remained safe in our own homes or for those that have been affected, have already moved on after some time.
My mom’s one eye with cataract has been safely operated.
I got to enroll in a photography class.
Apart from the local travels I had last year, I was also able to travel to Korea and Singapore with friends and family. And last December, I was given the chance to travel to US for free. Though it was for work and not for play, I’m still thankful for that rare opportunity to discover another country and culture, one thing I always love doing.
And I guess the best part of my 2012 is meeting a good person and definitely God’s gift for me.. Someone who has proven me that there really is that one true love out th ere.. A love that makes me feel really good about myself — no negative references from the past and no worries about the future.. While one of the very few disadvantages of having all these new commitments is having to juggle my time and energy for everything that’s on my plate (and it’s really hard, I must say.. it gets tiring sometimes when I only get an average 4 hours sleep everyday), at the end of the day, having a family to go home to and a love one that I always look forward going home to, never fails to suffice.. Everything just seems right (and always better) when we’re together. A girl friend who got married last year and has gone through hard times even before marriage told me, no matter what happens, no matter how hard the times get, as long as you’re together, everything will be fine..